Leave them all behind

Can you write about existential being and nothingness when it is sunny outside?

I have really been feeling alive the past few days/weeks and have experienced the emotional extremes of being human. I have been giddy for days and it felt really good - a feeling I haven't felt since I had my last crush. But with the giddiness there has been the feeling of dread and the feeling that this giddiness or happiness is only temporary. I am trying to push away the dread and continue to feel giddy or at least be more pleasant.

I am trying to get rid of some of my physical baggage and I have been cleaning out my closet. I have been bogged down with stuff. It will feel good to donate these bags and hope someone who truly needs my old stuff will use it. While I am less cluttered I still have too much stuff but I'm not ready to let much more go right now (the problem of living in a capitalist/consumer culture). I am not ready to leave them all behind (my stuff) but I'm getting ready for change in my life - it is coming and I think I will be leaving somewhere soon.

I thank the sun for making me feel again. Now if I can just get to the ocean...